edicius.org: February 2009

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Don't panic.

Someone needs to hack the Kindle 2, simply to be able to make it sound like the Hitchhiker's Guide from the BBC Radio program. At least when it's browsing Wikipedia. This is now necessary.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Serenity in dissonance.

Today at work, I've had my vast Nine Inch Nails discography queued up on my Zune and while walking outside between buildings earlier, the "Fixed" remix EP queued up. I re-realized, with both earbuds firmly planted in my ears and the volume set high, that "Fixed" is, to date, still NIN's best remix album/EP.

From the opening noises (I can't technically call them the opening chords) of "Gave Up" all the way through to "Screaming Slave", it's such a brutal assault on the senses that is unexpectedly serene. Particularly when listening to said album via earbuds, separated (at least auditorily) from the outside world. I can't quite explain it, but the hard driving remix beats from Reznor and Co. left me with an indescribable serenity amidst the pure dissonance of the music and the harsh, cold February winds relentlessly whipping against my unprotected face.

Angry music creating serenity? It's almost enough to make me think that I have an inner sociopath hiding somewhere deep within.

posted by edicius # 2:53 PM 0 comments

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Before and After.

As promised, the 'Before' and 'After' pictures.

This first picture was taken at my wedding reception, May 2006. I weighed anywhere between 230 - 245 lbs here, wearing a size 38 or 40 in pants and XL shirts:

And this picture was taken this morning before work (in my still-mostly-unpacked office) at a weight of 159 lbs, size 32 jeans, medium shirt:

Word.

posted by edicius # 10:16 AM 1 comments

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I feel good.

No, I'm not making some lame-ass James Brown reference either.

I actually feel good today. Genuinely good. For probably the first time in a long while. My back pain has improved significantly and I'm going to be down to single visits per week to my chiropractor as of next week. Mentally, I'm feeling so much better - especially today, for some reason; it's as though a switch has been flipped in my head. It makes me think that the Effexor is working. It's a stark difference from a few weeks ago when it also felt like a switch had been flipped in my head, but resulting in a negative mental state rather than a positive one. Right now, I feel like my mind is in a place that it hadn't completely returned to since I went off Effexor the first time (back in late 2005). I don't want to jinx myself, but today just feels right. It's satisfying.

Additionally, I've been meaning to take a full-length picture of myself (i.e. not just a MySpace Pose™ headshot) and find another older picture of me to truly show the "Before and After" effect of my weight loss. Just going by the reactions of others, it's a stunning difference. Due to the aforementioned improvement in my psyche, I might actually be able to take a non-emo picture for a change. Still no teeth showing though; I do still have braces on, y'know.

posted by edicius # 1:16 PM 1 comments